It has been pouring rain for two days, the front walk and back are flooding, the TV won’t work and I am tired of cleaning. I keep trying to read but my mind keeps chattering away all by itself. Does time move in a circle? What if I can’t find my passion? How do I forgive myself for past missteps? How do I trust I will make right choices in the future or will I trick myself again. Does single-mindedly pursuing a goal rob us of the other places I might have gone? Retail therapy works until the bills come due. Breathe..just breath..this too shall pass.
3 Little Words……..“I Love You” comes first to my mind- some folks find it hardest to say. Harder for me has been “Please Help Me.” I found the mindset that woman could do anything they set their mind to do and still believe that now. Many years ago I took this to an extreme by living in a house with no running water, an outhouse (I dug) and the only source of cooking and heat was the woodstove. I cut and split my own wood (with help) and lived there for a year carrying water home every day. You would never have known how I lived if you had seen my 100lb sweet self. I decided to opt for easier life and moved in town with all the luxuries. Three months later I had the car accident that changed my life. I was grateful for immediate help and I healed in my way. Things that drove me crazy were things like not being strong enough to open a window, open a stuck or heavy door or just get the lid off of a jar. I did grasp how lucky I was but “Please Help Me” was the hardest lesson.
This post was started on 8/31/12 – 8 days ago- I found out that the challenge does not include the write for five minutes option. I was confused and saddened. Then I slipped into the dark writers abysses of self-doubt and an inability to write. Life took over and it was easy to slip away.
BUT I’M BACK…………..
I have a wonderful daily journal from One Spirit that I love. Each month has a suggested thought for the month- September said Start Again. Raw talent is nothing without drive and dedication. Sometimes all that keeps us from succeeding is laziness. So dear readers, I start again. The following is the draft I saved. I really like the five minute writing and might do it anyway. I have missed you.
This weeks writing challenge is the sound of blogging. Now as you may remember, you write for five minutes and quit- no rewrite. I know not to compare myself to others but mine seem so short. Do I think slowly or type slowly? Well I am sure about the typing slowly although it has gotten a great deal faster since I started blogging. It occurs to me the sound of blogging is the click of keys. Anyway here is this weeks Friday Five. Why don’t you join in? It is from WordPress Daily Post.
The sound of blogging
Can you hear silence? Can you see the wind? Can you hear the gulls cry when the beach is in your mind? Yes yes yes. The question is the sound of blogging- sometimes it is soft and babbling like the stream just flowing along. At other times it is like a rock rolling down a hill bouncing of rocks and trees and other obstacles. Every once in a while it sound like the wind during a fierce storm ,loud and strong pushing me along. Often I write in the early morning, so most to me it sounds like the early morning birds singing in the new day. Lastly , blogging sounds like a hug.